Waiting

I’m doing up my CV now… I’m influenced by the people around me all scrambling to get their CVs in for the compilation. Normally I won’t even read emails from Career Office. Figured I’ll try pull strings after graduation and be an account servicing PEON in an ad agency or something. And then start a wedding consultancy with Sam when we have enough moolah and experience (thus Sam should really get married soon). I don’t know. Maybe I should make an effort.And also I have to pass time cause I’m waiting for CJ to come down from Orch to have supper with me.

Had our first real quarrel yesterday. I believe I shouted (at a public place, no less) into my phone. It’s all very unglam and such. But we talked things through in the end. I ‘busted’ his surprise visit, but I’m still really touched that he left the game to come and look for me. No wait, see… some people are still in the mood to go gaming after quarrelling with me. Tsk. =p

Anyway I was thinking – after hanging out with his friends at Makansutra – that maybe… maybe I should try gaming as well. MAYBE. Someone told me it’s a matter of time. My knowledge of the game … well I know he doesn’t like the ‘pretty boy’ characters or something like that. Also I watched a bit of some raid he was conducting this morning into some molten lava cave It’s so confusing! There are so much stuff on the screen and there are so many people running around.

I’m bored so I’ll update on other stuff going on in my life so I will never forget.

Went to MINDS cafe with Sam and gang on Tuesday. Was fun! I love playing I’m the boss. The negotiation thing was fun! Didn’t really like Saboteur cause I am always the skinny acky saboteur! I am NEVER the gold digger!

Went shopping at IKEA with CJ and bought more stuff for his room. I’m like free labour. After helping paint his room, I’m now gonna help him set up his lamp. Okay but aside from the complaining, we also went Tangs to get a pillow for me. Also a box so I can throw my stuff inside.

School’s going great. Pop culture’s a blast even though it’s 8am in the morning. My new friend and I giggle everytime RT says ‘et ceterrra et ceterrrra’

I’ve just changed my school email address… after 6 semesters, I finally had enough of U03XXXXX@n*us.edu.sg

On being scared by forensic science notes – I downloaded my notes from tomorrow, and set about scanning through it before printing it. Tomorrow’s lecture is about crime scene! God and there are pictures of the crime scene… For some weird reason I deleted all my notes without printing them. So now I have no notes for tomorrow.

Lately I’ve taken to wearing dresses, especially the bohemian-ish one that the girls got me.

Aside – Wow I kind of thought it’s forgotten but it isn’t really. Anyway, I can’t write anything without being scrutinised.
On my A|X dress … kind of. I tried it and size 0 is too big for me.

Finished One day in september. It affects you. At least it did for me. By the end of the first 50 pages you feel like you know the victims, and it pains you to read on. But you have to know what happened to them. Just like their family, who didn’t know exactly what happened until 20 years later.

And FINALLY Mum and I are going to Hong Kong to shop. Once again, at the end of the year when they will only have winter clothing.

I want to get a merlion soft toy! It’s so adorable. It looks like a shrimp.

Am trying to get a necklace like Heather’s in the picture below.

Was wondering if I could ask a friend to make it and then pay her… but hmm… wait for her to be online first.

Okay he called! I’m at his beck and call. Haha.

On managing stress

I’ve never really been truly stressed out over school work. Sure, it might be a bad thing, because it means I do last minute work and stuff but things have always pulled through well so I don’t really think much about it.

Lately I’ve been reading a friend’s blog and see that this friend has been under some stress. A part of me wants to drop a message and say take care or something. But I didn’t, cause the last time I did that, I felt a little snubbed by the response. It sounds like I’m petty and stuff, but really, who willingly sets themselves up for a snub?

Anyway, back to topic, I’ve never really felt stressed about school. It can be a good or a bad thing, like I’ve said. I think mostly bad, cause when you’re with a group of overachievers (I kid you not) and you’re not stressing yourself out with school stuff… chances are you’ll not get as good results as them.

This semester I’ve been a little more hardworking. No, I have not gotten around to buying textbooks yet, but I’ve been printing readings and stuff. I used to go to class without readings and stuff.

I’ve been diligently doing my research for meetings and projects. I’ve read up cases before classes. In short I’ve just been doing standard stuff almost every student does. I’ve found that I kind of like the whole hardworking student thing. Too bad I only found that out in my second to last semester at school. But better late than never!

Anyway, I work well under pressure. =)

On another note, this is the poster CJ got me. To give you an idea of A1 size, I’ve put an A5 size notebook at the side for comparison. It’s a bit blurry cause (1) I used a handphone camera (2) I couldn’t bear to remove the plastic covering.

And me saying ‘I love you Tony Leung!!’

Sure, Maggie is gorgeous and all…

Short updates

What I’m reading – One Day in S*ptember by Simon Reeve, which kind of makes me both angry and upset at the same time.

What I’m listening to – Foll*w Through by Gavin D*graw. This was the song that I was searching for the longest time. I only remembered ‘you have to follow through’

What I’m excited over – The ITMFL poster CJ got for me, as well as the painting he did for me at Art Jam. I loved it. =)

What I’m thinking about – That when beauty contestants say they hope for world peace… maybe it isn’t some generic response. Because with the state of the world today, it’s something to hope for.

What I desire – Dresses! Lots and lots of dresses! Of course, anything Chloe-ish will be nice. As well as Vogue Italia and Paris.

What videos I’ve watched – Dogs vs Cats, America’s Sweethearts, Shawshank Redemption (It truly is powerful), Princess Bride.

What classes I’m taking – Service Marketing, Compensation and Performance Management, Consulting Practicum, Sociology of Popular Culture, Forensic Science

What my friends have been inviting me to – Yoga class with Mel at True Y*ga (hehe =)), Salsa club with a new friend I made from soci class. And when I’ve brushed up on my ipod knowledge, I hope I can join YM at iShop!

What I’ve rediscovered – Whose line is it anyway? I love Colin and Ryan.

In the mood

CJ bought me a framed A1 ‘In the mood for love’ poster today.

Edit – In kind of related but unrelated news, ‘kitten’ in my msn is what CJ calls me. Supposedly, it’s such a great nick that a friend wants to learn from him

Jim™ says:
so whats with the kitten thing?
kitten says:
haha
kitten says:
it’s a nickname
Jim™ says:
given by??
Jim™ says:
urself? =P
kitten says:
haha no.. my bf
Jim™ says:
lol
Jim™ says:
i call my gf baby
Jim™ says:
kitten.. sounds cute
Jim™ says:
maybe ill learn a little
Jim™ says:
=P
kitten says:
haha… baby is cute too
Jim™ says:
kittens better

I am that girl

I wrote this a long while back… At that time I promised myself I will post it when I’m feeling better about myself. I never really got around to doing it.

I am the little girl who stayed with her grand parents until she was three, because her parents were busy working, and could only see her on weekends.

I am the little girl whom strangers love to hold, because she is always smiling and laughing.

I am the girl who was teacher’s pet.

I am the girl who demanded to learn how to ride the bicycle when she was 7 years old, because she wants to play with the boys and girls who live near her block.

I am the girl who dabbled in hockey, track, badminton, tennis, touch rugby but never picked up any, because she isn’t the competitive sort.

I am the girl who is very friendly with all the boys in primary school, but upon reaching secondary school, became shy and reserved. I am the girl whom a friend once told ‘you’re really pretty, but you should be friendlier’. I am the girl who never dared to do anything too outrageous. I am the girl who doesn’t know if she regretted it or not.

I am the girl who is insecure about how guys feel about her, despite telling everyone she doesn’t care. I am the girl who kept her heart closed for a long time, because she is afraid of being hurt.

I am the girl who ran away from a guy, literally, because she was afraid she couldn’t like him back as much as he liked her. I am the girl whom he told his father about.

I am the girl who ran away when someone told her ‘I love you’.

I am the girl who is hurt; in a way she didn’t know she could be hurt. I am ‘that girl’. I was the girl you missed. I am the girl you never cherished. I am the girl who sat with you on the bench for 2 hours that night, my heart aching knowing that you let me go. I am the girl who read your message, feeling sad, angry and disappointed in you. I am the girl who thought you were that much more. I am the girl who was wrong.

I am the girl who is going to forget you.

I am the girl thinks she is not a good mentor, because she has never been good with fostering strong ties with people. How ironic that she is trying so hard now.

I am the girl who never had a truly special valentine.

I am the girl whose friends think is strong, I am the girl who radiates the happy vibe, I am the girl whose friends could never fathom being vulnerable. But I am.

I am the girl who is lucky enough to have a best friend who was clearheaded enough to scold sense into me, and listens to me even though she was hurt as well.

I am the girl who drinks lychee martinis and cosmopolitans, I am the girl who dances because she is happy, and I am the girl who loves to feel slightly out of control. I am the straight girl who loves dirty dancing with other straight girlfriends. I am the girl who sat outside a club at 3 am sobbing, and made a close friend worry about her.

I am the girl who secretly loves to sing and dance in her room.

I am the girl who is going to pick up inline skating and running again, because it keeps her mind off the bad, it makes her happy.

I am the girl who plays ‘A Time for Us’ on the organ when she is happy. When she plays it now, it is bittersweet.

I am the girl who is discriminating. I am the girl who doesn’t know how to treasure people who treat her well. I am the girl who has a mean streak.

I am the girl with the infectious smile; I am the girl who really just wants to be happy. I am the girl whose heart is mending.

I am the girl who is hopeful of the future. =)

On growing up

I haven’t been writing much lately, especially since I started internship and school. And of course, any free time I have are spent with CJ. This is one of the rare nights I am actually staying at home. And I just got off the phone with him… it’s ridiculous but I miss him already.

And if I had written lately, the entries are usually short and/or about reviews. I guess when you’re happy there isn’t really much to say except ‘I’m like, really like, happy, you know’.

I’ve actually been looking forward to the start of the semester actually. I loved working at T*BWA but there is a part of me that misses school. Today, I went to school 3 hours early with my laptop, Spinelli’s coffee, an large oatmeal raisin cookie. I parked myself on one of the benches in biz, turned on the music and started work. I love it. I love the feeling of doing work in school. It’s only when I’m not at home (or not near a bed) that I can actually get work done.

As I grow older, I much prefer being alone in school. Or in small groups. When I was younger I needed big groups of people to be ‘verified’. I used to be really insecure about walking alone in school. Now I much prefer being alone, or with one or two friends. Of course, I still can’t bring myself to eat lunch alone.

And I’m FINALLY getting serious about work. Okay, to be honest I wasn’t always model student. In fact, I am not, I’m just learning to be one. It’s level 4! I can’t afford to slack.

To end off, this is kind of old (Sping Summer 06) but I quite like the shirt dress style. Obviously I love the Hermes, but Hussein Chalayan gives it a twist. MariaCarla is gorgeous!

On Movies

Reviews on some movies I’ve watched lately (and by lately I mean since the last time I’ve updated stuff on movies)

Cars (with Sam) – I loved it… I’ve always liked movies where there is different characters with their quirks. I especially liked Filmore (the VW hippie van) and Guido & Luigi (Italian tyre specialists). I think its hilarious that cars are actually selling tyres… Especially at the end when three Porsches came to their ’shop’ and Luigi actually fainted from the shock. Cars have royalty too! Haha. It’s better than a lot of other cartoons I’ve seen in recent times… the one about the zoo for example.

X Men (with E) – I LOVE X MEN!!!!!!!! (the movie at least) <– Pyro is so hot !!!(pun fully intended hur hur) –> Like Cars, I also love it because you can see each of the character quirks. So many people died though, kills my hope that there will be an X Men 4 (although they did ‘resurrect’ Prof X in the end). Very nicely done. I loved it. Please don’t let this be the end of the series!

Superman (with I don’t remember who) – Better than I’ve expected, which doesn’t say much because I didn’t have any expectations. Ha! Seriously, it was surprisingly entertaining. The love story was sweet and not too overdone. Thought Kate and what’shisname looks nice together, and very well suited for the leads. And I actually felt sorry for the guy she married.

Just My Luck (with Sam) – Not too bad. A fluffy movie but fun to watch nonetheless… cause you keep seeing the good stuff happen to Lindsey. I also think it’s fun to watch because there’s a part of us that wants to be lucky like her. The ending is good also, because it wasn’t some dumb ending like everyone becomes lucky… it was a nice sweet ending where they all become normal.

Ant Bully (with Mike) – All right. I only watched it because it was free. Haha. Erm, typical moral type movie. I thought the ‘I can beat you up because I am big and you are small!’ was too obvious and overused. Quite nice though, I thought the glowworm was sarcastically funny. ‘What does it matter? I only live for 2 weeks anyway’. Enough of insect movies!

Thank you for smoking (with CJ, Sam, YS and other) – Very good! =) Although it was lacking something… to anchor it. I’m not sure how to describe it other than it lacks an anchor like how ‘Fun with Dick and Jane’ lacked an anchor. Loved the opening scene where Nick Naylor had this totally ridiculous but strangely logical speech on how the tobacco companies sees ‘Cancer Boy’ as a potential customer and didn’t want him to die. Katie Holmes = extra.

Pirates of the Caribbean (with my love hur hur) - I loved it! It was a fun ride, and Johnny Depp & Orlando Bloom are in fine form here. The whole Kiera seduces Johnny thing was a bit weird. I preferred the original version, but this isn’t bad. Strangely I loved the whole bit where they are trapped in 2 huge balls thingy and are swinging themselves to the rock face. Oh and – <– insert typical Johnny is so cute! squeal here –>

Fast and the Furious : Tokyo Drift (with Alex) – I think the Korean guy Han is so cute!! Okay not in the traditional good looking sense (in case people question my taste again). Just cute in the ‘I don’t give a damn, take my car… bang it up, not a problem’. I cried when he died. I loved this movie… great for an afternoon when you don’t really wanna use too much brain cells. The props (i.e. the cars and the girls) are great, and can only exist in a Hollywood movie.

My Super Ex Girlfriend (with Stuart) – It was all right. Fluffy movie but not fun cause it was a bit ‘Huh?’ at points. Like when she threw a shark into the bed room. And the whole ending fight scene was a bit… well. I liked the guy in big nerd glasses though. He’s so chauvinistic and clueless it’s hilarious. Anyway, it was aight. Ha! I used aight!

How Much Do You Love Me? (with my love again) - I quite liked it but I’m lost at times. I’ve lost count how many times me and the SO went ‘WTF?!’ Very French-movie with the whimsical scenes, the ‘did it happen or was it in his mind?’, the wtf?! moments. Think ‘Love Me If You Dare’. Sweet, simple ending which leaves a bit of weirdness. Monica B. was great in this weird movie. She’s just hot la. =)

Adding a movie widget bar thing at the side… knew of the Apple Trailer site from the bf and there are so many movies I wanna watch!

Happiness

On the first day of school I was in school from 12-6.

On the second day, I was in school from 9-12, 3-6.

Today, I was in the library for CP meeting from 9-330, and 4-630 meeting at Technopark.

Somehow my school hours are very similar to work hours.

But I’m happy.

Especially on Sunday night when he sensed I was upset and unexpectedly turned up at my doorstep to have supper with me.

Especially on Tuesday when I went out during my 3 hour break to meet him to buy paint. We are gonna paint his room tomorrow!

Especially last night when I received a message from him at 345am telling me he loves me.

ARGH DHL SUCKS

Sent out a package to London for a client last week. They are color proofs, so they are flat documents.

Upon following up with the client this week, they reported they got…

Kilts.

Scottish Kilts.

It was a seriously wtf moment.

With you

A short write up about yesterday, and on seeing him everyday.

I don’t blog about it but I’ll always jot down in my date book what I did everyday so I won’t forget. I have this thing about forgetting stuff. It makes me uncomfortable to realize I’ve forgotten something I’ve done. Especially with him.

After Ant Bully with Mike yesterday (which was quite a fun movie) I went over to see CJ and headed to Tong Sh*ui Café. It’s really quite cool… kind of an eclectic type of place. When we were there they were playing old Chinese wuxia movies on the big screen. And they have weird food like hot cola with ginger… I wanna try it some time. I had the pomelo mango blended drink which is really yummeh.

Grabbed this from the site. Think it’s the exact table we sat at.
And then we went to Winebar. Winebar on a Monday is great. It’s quieter… like it should be, I think. We spent our time watching F1 racing.

Day before he had a surprise for me. We were supposed to go shopping at Ikea, but ended up at China Sq*uare Central’s flea market! It’s my first flea market ever, and it was really fun. And while I wasn’t noticing, he bought an old fashioned Audrey Hepburn mirror that I was admiring and slipped it into my bag.

Then we went to Turf City and Clementi. And now I also have a pair of his house keys.

Come to think of it, we’ve been seeing each other everyday for about a month! (Okay except that Monday when er… we didn’t) I keep thinking maybe one day we will get tired of seeing each other everyday but now I just can’t imagine it.

I’m going to just enjoy the honeymoon period and not worry too much.