The chair flies across the room

Today I went for this volunteering thing I promised to help PS with at this secondary school. At first I thought it was for some leadership program thing… until I reach the student centre and Meng told me, Benson and Bernard 'Oh they may be a little challenging' and then we learnt that they were from the normal technical class. 

I think I lived quite a sheltered life when it comes to interacting with normal technical students (what the hell does that mean anyway). Really. In secondary school, I only had 3 interactions with students from NT.

1) This girl who hates my guts for some reason. One day when she had detention and I asked her if she had taken her attendance and she was like 'Prefect very big ah?!' (Ya ya. I was prefect in secondary school, already nerd in training)

2) This guy whom I sometimes see with his other friends, and a couple of times he'd smile at me and say hi. And his friends will do the shove him around thing. Actually I think he was also the one who called me a couple of times but put down the phone immediately. 

3) This girl whom I don't really know took to calling herself my sister and everytime I walk past her she shouts 'Jie!!!!' and tells everyone I'm her god sister. (Till today I don't know what I did to cause such endearment ) 

Okay anyway, no judgement and stereotyping!

Anyway, woah. Eyeopening. In the first 15 minutes, this guy threw a chair across the classroom at some other guy. And for some weird reason no one reacted (included the guy who was the object of the chair thrower, but he wasn't hit or anything. If he were, it'll be weird if he didn't react), so for a while I thought I was hallucinating. Maybe I was. Am I? How come no one reacted? I didn't react too, so maybe it's … I'm giving myself a headache. 

It was hard to get them to work with us to set up the games and stuff. I talked to a few guys, and actually they are really quite nice kids, just reluctant to join in stuff they think is quite kiddish. I was asking this guy, R, to go join in the games, and he was like 'I don't do it… it's childish'. But in a really nice, reasonable way. Like he really thought so instead of trying to lie or something.

And R was really nice. At the end of everything I was trying to pack up all the game stuff, and a couple of kids were playing around with the props and I was asking them to give it back. They didn't want to, so I tried the jokey tack with them, saying 'That's stealing!' (Okay so maybe it's not so jokey). R grabbed the props off their hands and then handed it to me in… well sort of a gentlemanly way. 

And this other kid N, who is so loud, so hyperactive and kept interrupting us. But when it comes to playing games, he was the most enthusiatic! The response for the games wasn't that good, so I was thinking he was the leader type of person, and I asked him to ask his friends to join in. And he did! It was… well it was nice to see them join in cause he asked them to, cause I was having a hard time getting them to join in. I think some battles have to be 'fought' by the kids and not us. 

And huh. When they introduced me, some kids took to called me Cristiano Ronaldo for some reason (I hope I'm not butchering the spelling here). Har-di-har. But it was nice. A secret nerdy side of me was thrilled that I was the only one they gave a nick name to. But maybe it wasn't like an affectionate nickname kind of thing, but more of a insult thing. Hm. Shucks. I don't know. (I just googled him! He's hot!!! It's definitely NOT an insult!)

He he suddenly feeling happier.

You know, those kids… they get excited by jelly sticks. =) They are soooo kid, but they like acting like they're too cool to play games. Isn't that cute? And why do I get the feeling that they will think that 'cute' is an insult? =)

I never knew how to act around teenaged type people. But I think if you give them a chance, they surprise you. Like R, like N.  

Another way they can surprise you is by spitting on the floor like 2 metres in front of you (the same chair thrower). I don't know if I should take that personally or not. For one, he was glaring at someone else while he spat, but the spit landed really near my (papillio-ed) feet! Gee, that really hurt my feelings.  

Oh today I wore a polo tee and jeans! Considering I won't wear jeans often, and I don't wear polo tees often, this is like a damn rare combination of clothing!  

Driving myself nuts

When I read something on a website that makes me upset or uncomfortable, I'll go erase cookies, history and cache immediately. It's kind of like a cleansing, and also said website address won't be on my address bar and history so I won't be tempted to go look at it again. (It's this strange thing of mine… a masochistic streak maybe. Sometimes when something upsets me I'll keep looking at it, hoping the more I look at it, the less effect it has on me, and eventually it won't upset me) And I've probably lost you somewhere in the weird monologue. Haha

The bad thing about it is that then I'll have to manually go type all my addresses in the address bar cause it will be wiped out. You know how your address bar 'keeps' addresses of the website you go to so it's much easier and you don't have to retype all the websites you frequent on a daily basis. Ya, so I've to do it again. And because I've also gone to delete cookies, I have to relog in to all my wordpress, flickr, yahoo, ivle accounts which really annoying. (I'm in permanent login mode) ESPECIALLY the nus email one, which is why my nus email inbox is constantly flooded hoho.

Anyway, it drives me nuts cause I know I eventually will go back to the webpage again (maybe in the distant future but I know I will) and the while process will start all over again.

(I know people are going to say something about bookmarks; I've done it once, but somehow when I change my firefox default user all my bookmarks disappeared and I don't know how to change user again)

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Anyway this is like something I read in a book – 'Why do you need to have new hair, what's wrong with the old hair? If you had new hair because you didn't like the old hair, why did you have the old hair in the first place? And then you're going to get tired of the new hair and you'll have to have new new hair. It drives me nuts'

And speaking about old hair… I miss my old hair. I whine about it on a daily basis.

Come back, long fringe! Goodbye short fringe!

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So anyway!

Out dancing with the girls on saturday! We missed Mel! Haha… when Mel wasn't around Hui and I went around to look for Y and his friends. Hehe… it's good cause some stupid rule says we cannot enter Smoove unless we queue, so we got Y to come fetch us in through the other entrance. So pesky.

I didn't scold anyone that night! It's great!

Haha… when Hui and I went to eat supper, we were seated beside this group of guys. When we went back, the guys got into the car just beside the cab that we hailed. And as we were getting in the cab, the guys were like 'hey you want a lift?' and I was like gonna say okay (wtf right) and Hui was like 'No need' and was quite incredulous that I wanted to take the lift. Haha.

Y messaged us if we were home safe, and we messaged back something like 'I'm at James' place! Some guy we just met… he's hot!' and like 3 seconds later got a scathing sms that says something like 'Fuck you better take care of yourself, or I'm coming over to get you girls out of his place. Where are you?'

Huh. Okay la, he's being concerned. Why do guys always scold me? Why don't they treat me like a girl?

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Haha. Do you know trees have a value? At driving lesson today and the guy was like 'Don't knock down any of the trees. They have a value… my friend knocked down 2 and had to pay 600 bucks. He was like it's cheaper if I plant it myself!'

Hahahaha.

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Sometimes people disappoint you. Sometimes it's hard to be gracious.

Multicoloured

When I'm behaving weirdly I offer random information about myself to other people. And sometimes they do the same. =) Last night was a whole load of 'Too much information!!!! ARghghhg!' I hope it doesn't come back and bite me in the ass. Huh.

I keep getting flashbacks of conversations we had and it's … interesting. My eye wants to twitch from all the time and I start blinking like mad.

Oh I got this cute little panda toy from Hard Rock Cafe HK from E! It's so cute! It reminds me of the world's smallest kitten… the one from the news? So adorable!

Huh anyway, random information about myself – I used to think 'Quartz' was a watch brand until I was in secondary school.

Have you guys ever seen what a nerd looks like? Seriously, and it's amazing how a quite cute guy can seem so unattractive when he askes questions like 'On a scale of one to ten, how would you rate this party?'. What is this, a survey?

Anyway!!! I wanna get April Paris Vogue!!! They have the most gorgeous editorial ever!!!!!

Days go by

One afternoon, our geog prof said ‘All right! you guys are gonna have class like a real geog student!’ so we went out and sat on the grass and discussed tourism =) It was fun!

Supper at LPS. I had this thingy called the cola ice kachang or something. It has pop rocks and a lollipop! So fun! I love the crackling sounds. Ha ha. I like the way it pops on my tongue.

I am becoming a fast fan of chwee kueh! Especially the black thingys! The one at Bukit Timah… they sell ONLY chwee kueh. And it’s so yummy. I think they have other branches, cause I was at Bendermeer that day on the way to Jean’s place and they have it there too… like a branch sort of thing.

I don’t really like bread but I think buns are kind of poor thing like sardines. Like they are squashed and stuff.

I was at Borders a few weeks back and scanning through the shelves I was like ‘Omg! I can’t believe they allowed that book title!’. Then I realised it said ‘Flicker’

And guess what I saw! A book by Jason Hahn! I was a big fan back in secondary school. I loved his column in 8 days. I used to wish I was Saffy. Ha ha.

Anyone can make it if they learn how to shake it!

Wilson and Elsameyls do the Rumba

Mad Hot Ballroom is wonderful!! Definitely the best movie I’ve watched this year and oh I love it! I wanna learn dancing! I love the Swing dance and the Rumba… I love how they do the swing around movement (huh) in the swing dance! The ‘look at your watch, comb your hair’ movement of the Rumba. The rest of the dances are also wonderful, like Meringue, Foxtrot, Tango…

And the kids… they are so wonderful! They are so cute! I think Michael, Kelvin, Wilson and Cyrus are adorable! You see these kids, when they are dancing they look so serious, but when they are just hanging around being kids… they are so adorable! And I think Rodney is a damn hot ballroom dancing teacher. =D

And the music! I wanna get the sound track!!! I love the Rumba music! Ah shucks I wanna get the DVD!

Oh!!!! I want to learn dancing!

Edit – Omg I just saw this website, talking about song copyrights in the movie. Haha… I was telling Cher yesterday how during the movie I was thinking how the copyright thingy work in the movie. Cause okay, in the film they are using the music for educational purposes, so there is no liability. But if the movie films the school using the music, and then market this movie, then it's for a commerical purpose and they have to pay copyright license… blah blah blah, and I was making my head hurt, so haha.. this website answers my question.

There is another dancing movie coming out, I think it’s Take The Lead… not sure if it’s coming out in Sg though.

Ben & Jerry!

Hm all the talk about ice cream now I wanna go get a pint of Ben&Jerry’s later. I always thought it was fun to watch tv and eat ice cream from a tub. I used to do that until one day I found that I’ve unconsciously finished one pint in 1/2 an hour while watching tv… Fat city, here I come. That’s so like Bridget Jones isn’t it? So must do it in moderation now.

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Oh I’m supposed to have lunch with CF later, but after a weird conversation yesterday, I kind of lied and tried to get out of it. No seriously, it went something like this -

Him : “Hey so seeing tmr at 1? Biz canteen… try to grab the air con seats”

Me : “Okay. What air con seats?”

Cause biz canteen is open air…  

Him : “Oh, takeaway, we’ll eat at law library”

Huh?!  

That was way too weird, so I messaged him this morning and lied about having something that came up at the driving centre which I have to settle (which is true, technically, but it’s in the evening. Hoh) so I can’t meet him for lunch.

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I’m getting good at lying with a straight face! HAha.

On Friday was having dinner with P at Wala Wala. This caucasian guy with I think Philippine girl came to join our table. So okay. Then they called their friends over and all of a sudden there was like 6 people at a table that can only take maximum 4?! And this big burly guy was sitting beside me and I’m quite sure if he turns the wrong way I could get hit in the face. That was how squeezy it was. So I was thinking like ‘What are they, morons?!’ and no one is saying anything! So anyway, I lied, and said oh we’re having friends here later, so sorry you guys (the newcomers) can’t take this seat…

It will be quite obvious I lied later cause apparently no one can to ‘join’ us. Hoho.

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But anyway, don’t you hate ineffectuality?

Could drive me nuts.

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Ice cream and a book?

Ice cream and a video?

Oh Cher told me yesterday her cousin saw my blog and said I sounded sad. *waves!* So she called and asked me if I’m okay. It’s probably PMS… I kind of forgot if P means pre or post… but ya, I’m sure it’s something-MS. I’m fine… well almost as fine as me with short fringe can be but there you go.

Random photo of me and my longer fringe. It’s like a timeline isn’t it? (Days before short fringe.)
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I can’t wait for the Da Vinci Code movie to come out!!! *hyperventilates and clutches all her Dan Brown books to her chest like an obsessive fangirl* But man, is Robert Langdon supposed to be balding?! And when will they do Angels and Demons?!!

No more self pitying!

Ok I’ve decided to stop this little pity party I have for myself since er last night and get to doing something. Which is probably homework cause I am so far behind.

Oh E said he has to pass me something! Yay! Cause he just came back from HK so maybe it’s a present! Yay! I love presents!

Speaking of presents, I forgot to show you guys something that Yanmei got for me! Haha… It’s so cute! It’s a Boy are Smelly air freshener! It goes with my Boys are Stupid tee shirt! Hee hee.

Anyway, I was reading something Sam wrote about on her blog – about men being really self centered and when I was reading it I thought… not really lar, cause there are some guys who are quite nice, some who are really interested in you and your life etc… right? I do have some guy friends who take a genuine interest in how I am, etc. Unfortunately these are also known as guy FRIENDS. Whom you do not date.

Last couple of weeks I’ve been out on some dates and omg. It really sucks not to be able to talk about yourself. (Har har) No seriously. Why is it so hard for guys to turn the conversation over to the girl once in a while and ask her about her life? Why? Or am I such a self centered girl that I have to talk about myself all the time? Huh?

Why is it sometimes I sit across the table from the guy and strange, his mouth is moving, and I know he’s saying something, but all I hear is ‘blah blah blah’?

Whatever la, a feel good conversation is hard to come by. And I’m not talking about feel good conversations that are like ‘Oh I think you’re so hot!’, ‘A pretty girl like you should have no problems getting dates/getting free drinks from strangers/hailing a fricking cab’ etc. I’m talking about feel good conversations that make you feel good. Huh. Little Miss Vocabulary, that’s me.

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I can’t wait for next Saturday!!! It’s when hell week ends!!! I have so much stuff I wanna do!!! I wanna go tanning, I wanna go ride on this luge thingy they have at Sentosa, I wanna go check out Luella bags, I wanna go rollerblading, I wanna go dancing, I wanna make chocolate chunk ice cream (from the cookbook Mike got me eons ago). I wanna go Wala Wala! Actually what is there to do in Singapore!!! It’s so boring!! Arghahghhghg. I wanna go to some beach place and rot the day away! Huh my horoscope (yes I read it from time to time) says I’ll be extending lots of social invitations next week! So ya!!!! Can someone make chocolate chunk ice cream with me!!!! Also I wanna go take LOTS OF PHOTOS!

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Oh ya, I think there is no voting at my place this time round. Sian. I wanna vote!

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Anyway I was sick yesterday, and had this really sad conversation with my brother. I was sitting on the massage chair and looked at bro who was sitting at the computer table with what I think are sufficiently sad eyes.

Me : “Hey do you love me enough to go downstairs and get me ice cream?”

Bro : “Don’t want”

Me : “Why?”

Bro : “Sian, tired and lazy”

Me : “Even if I’m sick?”

Bro : “But I’m tired. And lazy to go downstairs”

I need someone to love me =)

You know,

Sometimes the more I try to be nonchalant and everything… It is kind of a build up. Because when you try not to feel something, it doesn’t go away, it gets stored somewhere. Then it bubbles over. And it’s not pretty.

I get bored easily nowadays. It’s not good. Nothing interests me anymore. I’m just being polite all the time. Sometimes I want to be unsociable and sit in a corner. But when I get that, I start wishing people would come and talk to me.

Coffee doesn’t work for me anymore… why?

I’ve been wandering around in school alone quite often lately. It scares me a little sometimes when I realise this is such a far cry from my life when I was a freshman. Is it me who changed, or is this something that is supposed to happen? I was quite surprised when a couple of tuesdays back when I went to school early to study for a test, I was joined by weiherng, then weihao, then chuan, then zw, then kailee and a whole bunch of people. I think I kind of miss having people around me.

This is not a very cheery blog entry. Damn it. Damn it damn it damn it.

I have to write up a 2 page report I have no interest in by tonight, study 6 chapters for a test on Monday, 2 individual assignments due Monday and Tuesday. All my group project mates are really understanding (despite me being so grumpy the last few days, I don’t know why they are so nice to me). Only one guy is driving me nuts, which I’ll take care of by plucking out his fingers and shoving it in his ears.

Sometimes I feel like shutting this stupid thing down.

What’s worse than thinking lousy thoughts, are having your lousy thoughts confirmed.

This is quite melodramtic but shit I’m miserable.

Hello!

It’s been a while! School’s really busy. Trying to be smart, I volunteered to compile and edit reports for 2 modules, cause I thought I only had 4 modules, so I have lots of free time. Huh. Wrong. I forgot to schedule in my assignments, driving lessons (finally!!!) and tests. So shite me.

And something is REALLY wrong when in one of your tests, you score 90/100, but that’s like average or something.

Anyway, happy birthday to me!

The parentals brought me out to Sakura, this buffet place where I gained like maybe 3 kg after dinner. I loved the lime cake!

Decorated it with fruits. Hehe.

E brought me out to lunch at Sakae at Suntec. I didn’t know there was one tucked in that little corner! Haha. Sorry no pictures! =)

And the girls brought me to Essential Brew @ Holland Village…

PS, Me and SL! Sam and Ming were there too! Sorry I was a little off that night…

Daer brought me to Sakae (Why is everything Jap? Haha)

Me giving Weis my best disgusted look.

Check out my tee shirt! Hehe… Weih and Larry were there too… We watched Date Movie. Haha… it was too funny! Especially when the girl asks the guy what his favourite love song was, and he became quite shy, and said ‘I’ll take you to the candy store…’

Wahahahaha.

Cher bought me dinner at Swiss Culture… it’s really nice! I love the scallops!

And Hui, Mel and Cher together with Maurice and Chris went clubbing with me!

Us!

Maurice| Mel | Chriis | Hui | Cher (it’s not from that night, but in the only pic I have with her I look gross, so I’m posting sth from some other party)

Hee hee… it was quite funny. Mel’s friend drove us back, and I was last. And then before I got off the car, he gave me this stalk of orange sunflower thingy… (you know, like the msn orange flower). He said he kind of bought it from some old woman who was selling. Hahaha…

And oh gifts from YM and Ben and Mike too! Thanks guys!

Not sure if I blogged about this – a while back Sam brought me along for some Lancome makeover thingy! It was fun! (You can tell it’s a while back CAUSE I STILL HAD MY FRINGE #%@%$#^)

In normal light it’s quite nice. But under flash it looks damn gross. (Photos in my flickr)

They picked up a kitten! Look at it! It’s so cute! Isn’t it cute?

Luella!

I’m in love with Luella bags! They are so nice! I’m not sure where they are sold in Sg though…

I think she likes naming her bags after models – Daria, Gisele, Linda, Carmen… haha.

This one’s Gisele. I LOVE it!!!

Look at the little heart keychain thingy! So cute!!

And thanks to Yanmei, I cannot get this watch out of my mind!!! Nice to know that there are only three in the world, so even if I can fork out 200k, chances are someone else would already have bought it. Anyway I don’t think it will look nice on me. Huh. Annoying.